Somebody Pinch Me

Somebody pinch me - I am officially in my twelfth week!

Soon, I will be safely out of my first trimester and securely fastened into my second. That fact makes me giddy. Sometimes it still feels like a really good dream. The kind of dream that seems too good to be true or the ones that make you wish you could go back to sleep but can't, no matter how hard you try.

Slowly but surely, my guard has come down. I've finally allowed myself to really and truly enjoy this pregnancy. Case in point: I made my first trip to a maternity store and I even purchased a couple of things. Words cannot fully express the feelings I felt as I walked around the store, stealing glances at other pregnant women with their tummies in full effect. Smiling, as their little tykes ran around, laughing and playing while their Mommies shopped. It was a good feeling. I left feeling happy and lighter than air.    

Things are definitely changing for Leo and I, too. Perceptions. Goals. Priorities, for sure. And the wheels in my head have been a' turning at a crazy pace lately. I love that I have all the time in the world to do just that. to think and figure things out. There were some major lay-off's at Leo's work a few weeks ago. It definitely makes us wonder if his job is going to last much longer. It's scary and also disheartening to see loyal employees who have given the best years of their life literally discarded with very little explanation. We both just continue to pray that both of our job remain necessary for the long-haul.

I've been keeping myself busy the last few weeks by working on our upcoming silent auction to raise money for Walk Now for Autism Speaks, which is scheduled for Friday, April 8th. All of the silent auction items are nearly ready and final event details should be secured by the end of this week. We've received some very generous donations from perfect strangers - a definite show of humanity. People helping People - I love it. I just pray that we have a good turn-out of guests. (Tickets are $25 per person - please email me if you would like to attend!) I will definitely keep all of you posted on the outcome. I am very happy to report that as a team, we have already raised almost $7,000.00!

Our next doctor's appointment is this Wednesday at 3:00 pm with the OBGYN - our first visit with him as we no longer have to be seen by the fertility specialist. (for obvious reasons) And then I will either be released to go back to work or not. I am leaving it in the Doctor's (and God's) hands. Either way, I am just feeling blessed to be right here. Alive. Breathing. Thinking. Dreaming. Loving and enjoying my life.

Enjoy the Day!   

Missy